Wednesday, August 13, 2008

The Pope in New York

...I finally have time to reflect...


So as you guys know I headed to New York a couple months back to greet the Pope on his first trip to the US. I went because I wanted to see him for myself and because I have quite a few friends who mean a lot to me back there that I wanted to share the experience with. He amazes me. John Paul showed me how to love the Church and Benedict continues to show me why I should. For instance, this man came here to tell us one thing and one thing only, that Christ is our Hope. Not politics, not a bigger salary, not technology or lower taxes, or good grades at the University, but Christ. Who says something like that, and with such certainty? After seeing him it was clear to me that I wanted whatever it is that he has, I want that sense of certainty, that kind of faith, that kind of concrete relationship with Christ. He tells us that Christ is the only answer to our humanity, and when I saw him in New York you could see that he knew that to be true in his own life in the way he lives, he was so happy, so loving! For him Christ is real, someone that accompanies him as a friend in the here and now. That is why I follow him and why every chance I get I read what he writes or speaks about. We are truly blessed to have him as our shepherd. While I was there I got the chance to hear him speak at the youth rally in Yonkers. What impressed me most was how spry he was at 81. Also, everyone (the media specifically) before he came was calling him things like the enforcer, and saying he was too German and too stern, but the Benedict I saw was incredibly happy and loving, he looked at us like a father should. In the end we were all very excited to see him, and he was clearly excited to see us, it was very much of a mutual thing.
The church I saw and that he saw that day is alive, and being there verified what I have seen to be true for the last five years, that even though the church may be smaller now, it is stronger and more aware of herself and of the task at hand: to proclaim Christ as our only Hope to a world that has reduced Him to a figment of our imagination. For my friends that were there with me to greet the Pope, and for me, Christ is the only response to our humanity and our desire for truth. Seeing the Pope helped to reassure us of this fact.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Catholic for a reason


Sometimes I wonder if people really think its that simple. Like its that easy just to pass off 2,000 years of history as if it were nothing, as if it could really just crumble into nothing. One time some reporter asked the Pope if he was worried about the Church since the number of priests in Europe and North America/Australia was dwindling so rapidly and he just laughed, replying that the Church "started with 12". And its true. What's beautiful is what people outside of the Church, and many inside...the sleepwalkers, can't see. How right now the Church is being purged of all its dead weight. All those priests and religious who don't love the Church, the lay persons who joined their ranks, who assert themselves above the Church without even the slightest hint of humility...as if they were the Church as if they could do it better...all under their banners of social justice and dialogue...and yet we see through them and their hard hearts...we love the Church and we recognize that it is Christ that finds us, that moves us, and that renews His Church without the slightest nod to the best intentions of man. This is what the Catholic family has forgotten, to pray and to listen. Instead many have asserted themselves time and time again claiming that they knew best, listening to the world and bending to the rules of the world...listening they called it...dialogue they called it...and look at the fruits of their labor...so many of their orders are dying ...these priests and nuns who threw of their habits in some vain attempt for some supposedly egalitarian ideal! Sickness. What blasphemy...what shame...what chaos. And the fruits of their labor, the beautiful irony...thousands of young 20 somethings that want nothing more than to follow the Pope and make the mass beautiful again...to be Catholic again...to proclaim that the Priest, that the religious, is in fact NOT a lay person...we DON'T want that...that was never intended...screw the 60s and its reactionary ignorance...they are not equal and were never meant to be...shame on you! Shame on you for making a farce of the Church and of what She shows us in Her rituals and hierarchy...Christ! All that mindless academic dialogue and tolerance...and you forgot the Mass...what makes you! What shows us Christ! And in your arrogance you were blinded by your own hubris, your intelligence, your ability to argue subjectivity...anyone can argue subjectivity...and yet we know it is not what we were made for! We were made for Truth! And what's worse, you poisoned the Church and Her flock! Shame on you...lost shepards...with lost sheep. The game is up...look at the movements in the Church and how God renews His Church through the Holy Spirit...the new line of Jesuits...faithful to St. Ignatius's teachings! What beautiful, beautiful irony! The Church is regaining her balance and She is thriving! What optimism! And yet we still struggle...so many are still asleep...Catholic only by culture...unaware that they are a new creation not bound by sin nor the world...pilgrims on Earth...we must face reality and we must live! FREEDOM! This is Christ. This proposal to live as Christ has asked us. We must regain our reason and employ it! We must embrace the risk of our faith. We must know why we are what we are, we must constantly verify so as to never repeat the sins of our past...of the great rejection of our humanity that occurred in the 60s and only grew worse..destroying our mass, the priesthood, the reverence, the papacy, OUR CERTAINTY! We must regain the mass in all its beauty and never again yield to the worldly...for we are not of the world! And in great faith we must bow to the Pope's authority because it IS reasonable! Because without it we are destined to be overcome once again by relativism and I REFUSE, I REJECT THIS CHAOS...WE must REFUSE to relinquish ourselves in front of the pursuit of the truth...it lies where faith and reason intersect...and we must always stay there...it is a constant work, but it is the only work, the only work that makes life worth living...that makes it real. You have lost, and Christ has won...there was never even a battle. We must pray for all the souls lost due to the misguidance of so many well intentioned shepards drunk with arrogance...that they too may come home before the great equalizer of death has its last word, before the darkness descends and as the new dawn ascends. ¡Viva Cristo Rey! Pax+

Friday, January 19, 2007

Solo is cool.


I went solo to argentina. It was cool, at first. Now I am just board and want to go back home to Chile. While I was in Argentina I read a whole book in spanish, so I guess that means I am learning the language alright. Today I went to see the house where Che Gueverra was born, I dont knwo if that is how you spell his name, but a little secret, I kinda dont care, not a big fan of the guy or the iconic image of mostly myth that he has become. I will not rant further however.

So yeah, I spent the last 8 days in Buenos Aires and Rosario, Argentina. Rosario is the home of the argentine flag and a colossal monument of patriotism devoted to it. Pictures soon. As for Buenos Aires, once again it is an amazing place and I hope to come back one day for an even longer stay, hopefully with people who know the city.

bye bye for now, have to catch a bus back to BA and then tomorrow I fly home to Chile.

tim

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

What am I doing you ask?

Well I am in Argentina right now, or more like Buenos Aires which is a whole differnt deal than the rest of the country really. The city reminds me of a really bad accident that involved only two drivers, New York and Europe. Yes, Europe completly clobbered New York in the crash but nevertheeless bits and pieces of New York can be found all over this city, although the majority of the streets and a buildings look like they came from France or Italy. I love it, I hoep in the future I get to live here for awhile, get to know it a little better, it´s a very cool place and is nothing like the South America I have experienced thus far...it´s huge,well developed, well planned and old but as I say this I realize it truly bears the mark of the conquistador more so than any other city I have seen down here....every major company is down here, from mercedes to panasonic to sun microsystems you name it. Anyway, either way its a very cool place to vist and soak in, definitly a place everyone should see, gives you a better grasp of the world as a whole.

So I saw a movie the other day Deja Vu with Denzel...and yes, Val Kilmer...as many of you already know, I do my best to see everything Val has done and thankfully he delivered again is this one...or did he, you be the judge.

Also, Ricky Martin has tatoos...is this newes to anyone else because it certainly was to me shit. Kinda pissed me off actually, i mean he is supposed to be a pretty boy, tatoos? Come on Ricky. Biggest let down thus far for me in SurAmerica....saw him on billboard...yeah i know, imagine finding out ricky´s body is soiled by tatoos by look at a billboard outside your hotel window in Buenos. I obviously haven´t opened my curtains since.

Um what else, nothing for now i guess, I should update more, i always think i have to wait till i put pictures up but forget that. I mean not forget the pictures, they will come some day, but i mean i can post without them. Well i am goign to make my sister read this, cause i dont think people read this anyway.

Con Cariño,
Timothy

Sunday, December 03, 2006

I am unconsoled, I am lonely, I am so much better than I used to be


I'm sad today. Woke up that way. All the friends I made in these last three months are leaving, and the majority are leaving for good. These last three months have truly been some of the best in my entire life. I never thought it was possible to cross paths with so many good people in such a short period of time, and I have a harder time believing how many of these people ended up being some of the best friends I have ever had in my entire life. Concepción, as Robert would say, is something we could not have done better, it was as good as it could have been and we are all lucky to have been a part of it. I have to say goodbye to Robert tonight and when I do I know it will mean, at least for me, that this whole chapter in my life will have come to an end. There are some kids on this trip that I was much closer to than others, they know who they are and I hope that means they know how much I love them. I just can't believe this went by so damn fast. I keep thinking about how I will watch that bus leave today at 9pm and how my heart will sink. I know I am headed to Santiago to study and that I have traveling to look forward to, but it just won't be the same...all the laughs we shared and just the fact that we were all so comfortable together, how we meshed in seemingly incomprehensible ways, how we were all just so damn different...so different, but maybe that was the genius of it all, maybe in the end we were more like a massive puzzle that finally got put together in Conce. I bet if we could take a step back and look at the puzzle completed, it would look more like a beautiful mural than some cartoony ass dibujo. Hah. Yeah. So here's to the other pieces in the puzzle, my better parts. I love you guys and I will never forget you or how you completed me. I can't wait to have a reunion, to meet you guys in the states with a fresh perspective and a bigger heart. Thanks for all your love, for all your patience, for all you laughs, and all the shit talking we did on pulga and precolombino. And yes, I am still looking for a way to keep in touch with Gaston, any sugerencias?

Con un amor fuerte y complejo,
Tim

Monday, November 13, 2006

New Pictures

Posted two new sets. Good pictures in both. One of my trip to Santiago to see the Beastie Boys and the other of the pilgrimage I went on with my girlfriend and her church. Hopefully I will have some more time here pretty soon to write about both experiences...but i don't now. Hopefully the pictures will suffice. For now.

love,
tim

Sunday, November 05, 2006

So what HAVE you been doing?

I haven't posted for quite some time, and I kinda even wonder if there are really people out there reading this, but I mean I'm gonna go ahead and write anyway because well, I figure one day I will probably wonder, "man that blog I had while I was in Chile...is that thing still up?" and then I will return here and think wow Tim, great memories...great freaking super bacan recuerdos.

So what have I been up to the last two weeks you ask? Well I haven't been traveling, that's for sure. No, the truth is that I have been trying to figure out whether or not our Nana (housekeeper) is a Robot. I seriously spent upward of 25 hours looking for where she plugs herself in, or for a charger of some sort, i don't know rechargeable batteries (doubtful, it would take way to many)...but after countless wasted hours and awkward moments of eye contact with the Nana..who is on to me by the way...i gave up yesterday. Sadly, I am left only with suspicion.

And then I have a girlfriend as well. Thats probably the real problem.

yeah, but I am headed to a beastie boys concert this weekend and so i will post some pictures and have some GREAT things to say.

love tim

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Shout out

I didn't do anything "interesting," in these past two weeks. I didn't go travel or even leave Concepcion for that matter, and I don't really have any pictures to post. Instead I just went to school and hung out with Chileans. And I must say, these have been the best two weeks of my time here. I think I got to caught up in the travel thing when I first arrived, and because of that, the first month and a half of my stint here was a total whirlwind. So, I decided I would use this post as a shout out to my Chilean friends who have been unbelieveably warm and kind to me my entire time here. I don't think I have met one kid while I have been here that I didn't enjoy my time with. See I am in this program with 50 Americans and all our classes are together, but we have "hermanos." Hermanos are the chilean kids that actually go to the University of Concepcion and that we are paired up with. For example my hermana is Andrea and she is a first year Translation student. All the hermanos are Translation students and each takes three different languages besides spanish. They study two intensely and one not so intensely. The thing is, it could have happened that after the first few weeks we would have stopped hanging out with the hermanos...because now we are acclimated and speak good enough spanish to get around. That is infact not the case at all. We actually hang out with the hermanos all the time. And its great. Anyway. The hermanos are great. And that's all there is to say about that.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Enamorarse

New pictures posted. Sorry it took so long. More tomorrow. I promise.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

On how i didn't get out of bed for 4 days

Yeah, so for the past 6 days I was really sick with what I was told by the doctor was strep throat. Horrible. I honestly haven't been that sick since I was little, and I am just saying that because, well I really can't remember the last time I was that sick. My throat felt like someone had jammed a grappling hook down it and decided...well maybe that wasn't such a good idea, and so began to pull it back out...FOR 6 DAYS. It was aweful. The good news is that today, though I have almost no energy, I am not feeling sick and am planning on...finally posting my pictures from my trip to valdivia, and if I have the gumption, I might even put up a new post. I probably will. I also want to make a video to post. Also, a confession. I have two blogs. One is for me, and one is for you. The one that's for me I have had for three years now and it is not, and will never be public. It's more like storage space for my thoughts. Why am I saying this? Because well, I have been writing more there then I have been here and I kinda feel bad because it's a little selfish. I promise to be better baout posting pictures from now on, and also about just saying how life's going here. Well, I need to go eat breakfast.

Monday, October 09, 2006

And the sleep i've lost could rest me...the best the worst and the maritimes

Today is a holiday in Chile. I don't know what kind of Holiday, but I know that I've got the day off. I spent the last three days in Valdivia, Chile. It's a southern town with a strong and very recognizable German heritage. On that note, they have a cervezaria (brewery) there that produces by far the best beer in Chile, called Kunstmann (http://www.cerveza-kunstmann.cl/). Yeah, I know, I really don't drink but I must admit that while I was in Valdivia I did have my fair share of beer. I think this might have had a little to do with the fact that while I was there with two of my friends, we ran into some Brits who happened to be about our age and English teachers at a couple of the Universities in Concepcion. We hit it off almost immediately and soon enough the Brits conceded that it was "beer o'clock" for them and that if we wanted, we could join them at a local pub. We had great conversation over more than a couple pitchers of varying kinds of Kunstmann. We talked a lot about British politics, of which I knew almost nothing about, and the conversation was really interesting, especially when we began talking about the different "peoples" that make up Britain...the English, Scotts, Welsh...and "Irish" and the feuds that exist. We talked about quite a bit of other stuff as well and before we knew it, it was about 11:30 PM. At that point we had two things on our mind, food and the discotheque. We ended up at a place that considered itself a "Mexican" restaurant and that we (the Californians), after having completed our meal, considered a misnomer. The truth is that there is no such thing as Mexican food down here, and if there are restaurants claiming to serve it, they are mediocre imitations at best. Honestly, it was kind of the same way in New York. Makes me miss home. Anyway, that night, after the psuedo-mexican, we ended up at some random discotheque (nightclub), as we do quite often down here, and had a hell of a night, it was a great introduction to what would turn out to be the beautiful city of Valdivia.

The next day we got up late, having gone to bed at 5 AM, and headed for lunch at a great little pub that came highly recommended in our tourist books, Cafe Hausmann. Since we were still in recovery mode, hah, it occurs to me now that we didn’t have a drop of beer there. Anyway, after lunch we toured the city. It is situated at the mouth of two major rivers, the Calle Calle and the Valdivia. On the Rio Valdivia side of the peninsula there is an open air "farmers market" called Feria Fluvial, which specializes in fresh seafood. It was a really cool place, there were fishermen filleting salmon right at the rivers edge on enormous cutting blocks. They would throw all the excess scraps to sea lions. The crazy part was that the sea lions were right at the base of their feet, chomping at the bit so to speak. Even though the sea lions seemed trained at times, all it took was a big piece of salmon to get them all riled up and aggressive toward one another. I really don't know how the fishermen kept their cool, because I imagine that there have been times when they've been afraid of being bit...the sea lions were huge. The funny thing was that the fishermen really played into the fact that they had crowds of tourists, mainly Chilean, watching the feeding frenzy in awe. I think because of this the fishermen puffed themselves up a little, so as to appear more comfortable than they really were. I have pictures which should be posted to the right eventually and I plan on putting up some video as well.

From the Feria, we took a ferry up the Valdivia river and (in what is becoming the rule and not the exception with the countryside of Chile) could not believe how beautiful it was. The river snaked quite a bit through marshes and trees and grasslands, all amidst a beautiful costal mountain range. While we were enjoying the view, my friend Robert mentioned how this trip, and the fact that we are down in Chile studying in general, is the kind of thing you can't "do any better"...it's the kind of thing, the kind of goal you might have for your entire life and never see come to fruition, but we have, and at that moment we both realized even more just how lucky we are to be here. The fact is, each one of us on this program is living out a dream, a life's goal and it will change our perspectives forever. It already has really.

After the boat ride and a quick trip to an indigenous local village, where Robert rode a horse…haha, I wish you had seen it…we went to the Kunstmann Cervezaria to sample beer and eat. We met the brits there and eventually ended up looking for a discotheque to go to, but for some reason the entire atmosphere of the town had changed and the place we were at the night before was dead. Anyway Robert and I walked around for like two hours trying to find a place to dance…haha…because as we have said many times before on this trip…we are only happy when we are dancing…but to no avail. We ended up at some dive bar with a group playing the Beatles. Had a good time, went to bed late.

I ended up coming home yesterday after waking up to rain and the realization that I had homework. The bus ride takes about 7 hours and I slept a majority of the way. The highway is listed as “the 5” on maps, just like the north to south interstate back home in CA. The scenery on the way home was beautiful but there really wasn't much out there, mostly farmland and forest, similar to driving up through northern California.

On a side note, some how our British friends had terrible luck in Valdivia. They were chased by rabid dogs, attacked by territorial foul, and marooned in some incestuous town near a Spanish fort. I have to laugh because I had no such experience and actually ended up with a date both nights I was there, although one night I couldn't find her anywhere. The point is, Valdivia appears to be a bit of a toss up...but if you ask me it comes highly recommended.

Friday, September 29, 2006

Castellano

So the Spanish here is out of control. Chileans speak really fast, often dropping their "s"es, and have tons of colloquialisms that only Chileans can understand. I love it. This week especially I have started to catch a lot of it and it's made the whole experience way more fun...Chilean Spanish is just a good time, it really is. All our teachers in the program speak in "normal" Spanish but they always tell us that if we can understand Chilean Spanish then we will have no trouble understanding every other dialect as well. I hope this is the case...either way it is a hell of a lot of fun trying to get acclimated to it.

For those interested I am headed to Chillan this weekend to snowboard in the Andes. Pretty ridiculous.

love,
tim

Sunday, September 24, 2006

First thoughts

Well I finally decided to actually write something. Thing is, I keep a journal that I write in almost daily, so this is kind of extra. I am thinking that I will put something up like once a week...hopefully more?

As a lot of you know I arrived in Chile about two weeks ago and have been living with my host family for roughly a week and a half. I would say today is the first day I actually feel settled and have somewhat of a routine. The family I am living with, whom I adore, has finally let down their guard and is showing me their true colors, which I might add are brilliant. They are incredibly loving of one another and are touching to watch. They all treat me so well, and I feel like another member of the family. They have two children, Macarena 20 and Martin 16. They also have a small zoo: 2 birds, a dog, a rabbit, and a hamster. I don't know what the birds are named but the Dog is Mochi (pretty much my Mom's other son), the rabbit is a giant and is named Tambor, and the hamster is Merlin. My "Dad's" name is Roberto and my "Mom's" is Valeria (about my parents age). They are adorable with one another. Family is very important here. Though there are exceptions, the overwhelming majority even if "separated" still see one another and play a major role in one another's lives. My "grandparents" are over often and so are other members in the family. I am very happy here.

Chile is a gorgeous country. The people are warm and the scenery is breathtaking. In the last two weeks and I have had the chance to travel up and down the coast of my region and am in awe of how beautiful it really is here. Yet, it is still quite impoverished and dirty (the beach for example is often littered with trash, and graffiti abounds, though it is almost always political). They family I live with is an exception and most certainly not the rule. Last weekend the program I am in traveled as a group to the town of Lebu. There we stayed at a boarding school of sorts. Primary education (through high school) is mandatory here, so those kids which live far out in the country must be bused in to larger cities where they live for the week and go to school. That is the kind of school we stayed at. Sadly, it was in deplorable condition and it is truly a shame that these underprivileged kids must associate learning with udder filth. It is true that at least they are being educated and that they may or may not know any difference, but in the end the environment is not healthy. Black mold was everywhere, toilets lacked seats and paper, showers were without hot water and the windows in the gym were composed of black trash bags. In Chile, private schools offer significantly better education and facilities, but are a luxury. The majority of the population does not have the ability to give their kids what they deserve and what we in the states take for granted. That is the reality.

We are lucky. We are so so lucky, and yet we are literally clueless. Some may agree with me, and yet I know this is not enough. In the end I know that me saying this seems rather cliché. We have heard this countless times before, about Asia, Africa, and South America, the balkans...the the world, and the majority of us merely accept it and then immediately relegate this knowledge to the background. We fall asleep and move into the routine of our own lives. This is the true shame. That we neglect to do something no matter how small that "thing" may be. It is who we were meant to be. We are called, daily, to help those who were dealt a shitty hand. To be examples. For my Catholic friends, you know that we are all one body. And when we see an open sore, a wound, we know it deserves our attention, we must not let it fester, we must not lose a limb. Mother Teresa knew this, in one of here first visions Christ took her to the foot of his cross and had her look toward the horizon. In her view were the countless poor, the neglected, to which she could see no end. Chirst wanted to help them, but he could not because they did not know Him. This was Mother Teresa's calling, to teach them of Christ and his mercy through example. Suffering is a part of the human condition, it is who we are, and it demands conviction, struggle (perseverance) and growth. Never forget that we are all called to Sainthood. I am sorry for the sermon, i wasn't planning on doing this but I think it gives you a better picture of what Chile has meant to me thus far and what I spend my time thinking about. I am not asking that people start sending checks to organizations that work with the poor in Lebu, unless that is what you feel called to do, but I am asking that you look at your own communities whether they be poor in spirit or in general health and to ask yourself what you can do, how can you be a better example? Some will say they do enough...could it really be that they couldn't do less?

To end on a lighter note, I start school monday and am very excited. The spanish is coming along quite well and with the addition of actual spanish classes I can only imagine the kind of improvement to come. I have made some great friends and relationships continue to grow. I am also excited to travel; I have some pretty awesome trips planned for the entire year...so look forward to great pictures and stories. If you ever have questions or want to know more about specific experiences, please email me and I will be happy to divulge even more details. There is obviously a lot I haven't spoken about...which is the problem with blogs, to bad it isn't linked up to my brain directly.

One quick last story to share. When I was in Lebu I did a lot of walking throughout the town. Once I walked alone to the river which was very close to where we were staying. It has a park that extends its entire length. There is a section of the park with a playground. I decided to stop near the playground and watch the children play. There were at least 30 kids and many of their parents were just relaxing, enjoying life and their children's laughter. Flying kites is a big deal here. All the kids do it and some of them even make their own. While I was watching, one of the kids noticed me watching (more like sapeando). Now I say he noticed me watching, but I am pretty sure it was more that he noticed that there was a "gringo" sitting to the side and that I stuck out like a sore thumb...as we do pretty much everywhere. Anyway, he came up and began talking to me and in Chile, the children are by far the easiest to understand...no accent and simple words. We talked about kite flying and about the river and how it had a lot of animals from the ocean. He wanted to show me one and said its name "apancora" but I had no idea what this was. Turns out it was the Chilean word for crab. Anyway he brought it to me and a bunch of kids came over to see it. We hung out for about a half hour and then it was time to go. No real point to the story except that there is something special about children and their openess.

Until next time.

love,
timo

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

New Pictures

So I finally got the pictures up from this past weekend. I promise to actually write something one of these days but as for now it's my bed time.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Video de la Cueca

This is a video I took of traditional Chilean dancers doing the Cueca in Plaza de la Independencia. The pictures to the right in "La Cueca" explain it a little better. Anyway, enjoy.

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

NY Montage

For those interested, I thought I would get started with some pictures and video i put together from when I lived in NY for two months and worked at the UN.

Update

Okay. I finally got my act together. If you are interested in keeping track of me while I'm down in el Sur then this is the best place to come. Hope all is well back in the States.